Lost In Beauty-

Friday, July 30, 2010

Lately i don't know why nothing seem to be right.Izzit my fault?i dunno i can still tel who.I use to tell sophia but she went back.Yani i oso dunno shld i call anot coz i know lately she has been quite happy.its like i don't want to tel anybody coz i dun 1 them to be sad abt my things.neither do i want to repeat or say e whole story.Everything.Like that day my elderest sis in law pancy.i bought milk for caleb n he was drinking after we went home.before i went out i already say im having stomach pain and once back i just went to toilet.I DID ASK MY SON TO COME OUT OF THE ROOM ALREADY!!my son didn't want to.then he throw the can of milk onto pancy's clothes.She is very scared of milk.the smell and everything.I came out even i have not finish my 'biz'.I bring him back into the room and say him with pancy outside so angry scolding my mother in law and saying nasty things like my son black hearted etc.I was so angry and upset that i went out of the house after she went out.from that day onward though she did talk to my son already but i never talk to her anymore.Maybe im just plainly xiao qi bah.But she avoided me from then on.even blind ppl oso can feel lor.Its as if she do not have any faults but the whole world yes.Everybody owe her something.DAMN IT!!so the next 2 days my mood was damn lousy.I didn't even tell my husband coz i don't want so much things ok.My mother in law says if can don't say.Don't want wait got more quarrels.So what should i do.Just keep quiet lor.so now when evr i call my mother in law pancy would call her lor.Not sure whether izzit i sensitive i just got the feeling that she dont want to let my mil help me or listen to me.Then the other day.I was rushing out to bring my son go to school and we are late already.I still have to rush back to bath for younger son and myself and rush to work.I already late so many times already.Then caleb step on the dogs urine and he slip and fall.But i really have to rush off.So my father in law was talking my son didn't answer then i also never say anything and i just pull my son and rush off without saying good bye ye ye(grandpa).So my father in law got angry coz he think that i don't want my son to talk to him.So when my mother in law came home asked me something he became very angry and scolded my mil.then came my husband who also gave me alot of headaches too.regarding alot of things.then now my work.i can no longer bring my son to work already.i reali dunno wat 2 do.But i'm very grateful that my boss did let me bring him to work already.but now i dunno wat to do.i don't blame her coz if im e boss or whichever boss.no one would like.i mean work is work.its not like this is my shop u know.there's so much so much things.My head is so pain and sometimes i can hardly breath coz i dunno who i can talk to.Its as if i can't talk to anyone.

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